haven't been on lately,lifes been...crazy?no...kinda confuseing maybe.i dont know how to describe it.sorry i haven't been on lately,its just ive been on facebook and theirs stuff going on there....i still love ya all im still blogging.its...i dont know.
heehe,dont know a lot today i guess.:) :/ there's been a lot on my mind but i cant really talk about it cause..ya know,the ever parnoid person in my head telling me that someone i know might be reading this.hehe.

its snowing...again.i ,ike snow though. evrything looks so pretty.im sad because all my friends are so sad,my unsaved friends at school.(well,most of them are from school.:/)they struggle so much and they dont have anyone to run to cause they aint walking with Jesus.no one to help them through. i feel like a mom because im so worried about my friends and im always interceeding for hem and trying to look out and watch over them. i feel like im constanly yo yoing from age three to age 90+.sad.

-jay

i figured out how to record stuff-ound-on the camera but i cant figure out how to get it on to the computer.:[

jaye has a facebook

i think the thing resolved itself.that i last wrote about yesterday?


-jaye

beautiful let down

what's a really gentel way to let a guy know you dont like him like that?
cause there's this guy at school,andd i dont like him the way he likes me...and i dont wanna compromise my witness as a christian cause im repping Christ...but i dont...*shakes head*.
any suggestions r helpful.

-jaye

life:::love

Deu 30:20
That thou mayest love the LORD thy God, [and] that thou mayest obey his voice, and that thou mayest cleave unto him: for he [is] thy life, and the length of thy days: that thou mayest dwell in the land which the LORD sware unto thy fathers, to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob, to give them. our wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it;

sick at hart

today i got a glimsp of things through YOUR eyes today,LORD.
im sick at heart and broken by what i've seen.
don't let me be like this,at all or anymore.
im so sorry for what we've done,what i've been and what i am.im sorry.
i love YOU.
amen

'definitly maybe' by FMstatic

this songs tight.well i like it at least.

- jaye

need to be paitent

Some of tori (my sister) and my mutual friends play guitar including tori.
why is that significant? Well,i play drums and have a drum kit (thats technically not mine but whatever),my friends(and tori) play guitar and have guitars,my best friend sings and i have an amp and a microphone.
I'm not about to form a band with out jesus's ok,but we can goof off and jam right? That's ok isn't it? I hope so. I kinda did that (form band without God's ok) a while back and that did NOT work out well AT ALL. I really want to make another band but im not going to do anything God's not with me on. so i just need to rember to patient.
My mom got a camera that records videos and sound and my MP3 i got for Christmas records sound but i dont know how to work my MP3...yet.my point is hopefully i can record something if were worth listening to and post it and send elipse some stuff.i feel bad,he's been waiting forever to hear some of my stuff but i've been unable to send it to him. i don't want to commit myself to anything in this area yet,but i'll talk to God and we'll see.


-jaye

don't be like this

we shove him,and slap him. and isolate, and drive him to the edge.rageing against all wise judgement and that beautiful still quiet voice of God Almighty.then we stand him up at the edge and walk away leaveing them standing there looking into the pit. we walk away when theyre in danger and need us most. and while we walk away,we wonder if they jumped. but we never really care.






-jaye

mabe im just paronoid but...

i wish i could write what's really on my mind,but i can't because i dont know who knows me that reads this.so...silence for now.I don't know what else to say,i have a headache because i've been listening to some lamo music i didn't know i owned?and that now i feel like i have blood pouring out my ears because it was so...well i didn't like it let's just go with that,k?

-jaye

'never ment to fall in love' by me

what is wrong with us,
we want love but settle for lust,
that we say i love you when it means nothing,
but never when it could mean everything,
we run away from what we seek,
and find another lover for the week,
we watch the one person from a distance,
love chipping down our resistance,
while we sit up late at night,
wondering if this will end all right,
you can't look them in the eye anymore,
because they're the type you wait for,
and you've messed up before,
but you want something more,
there's no greater love than what Jesus gives,
and for nothing else will i live,
Jesus has the number one place i my heart,
from finish to start,
but you can have number two,
because i love you




-jaye

paino lessons for snowfire by...some guy on youtube

P.O.D. 'will you love me tomorrow'

good song good message

-jaye

i dont wanna title it

ever wanted to talk about something on your blog,but you cant because someone you know might read it and you REALLY dont want them to?
yeah,haveing one of those moments..

-jaye

yez

i made a new song--->
see?
happy new year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111111!1!11!1!1!!11111!11!1!`1




-jaye