If We

If We were never told that we couldn't,
that We were too young,
to emotionally unstable,
to headstrong,
to shy,
to little,
or just not enough,
if We were never told by anyone but God that we couldn't or would fail...
How much more could we live for?


-jaye

What Is My Life for?

So I watched this movie ('Amazing Grace'-it's about the guy who wrote that hymn)and through the whole thing God was talking to me.
The movie is about this guy who got slavery to be outlawed. He worked most of his life because God put a burden on his heart for the slaves. He cried alot,he worked and donated most of his life and youth to this life mission from God. It's like the missionary who came home for awhile,then said he had to leave because he still saw the smoke from a thousand villages when he closed his eyes.
I've felt burden for the lost since i got saved;more specifically i feel burden for the people who have entangled themselves in sins and are so hurt and feel so alone and unloved. The people who cut themselves,the people who are sucidale,the poepl who are addicted to porn,or addicted to drugs,who drink to numb themselves,the people who are anrgy constantly and dont know why...i'm burden for anyone who hurts,or has hurt like i do.

And now, now,I've asked God to show me what to do about this. What can i do that will help these people?

I still need to pray about it some more,but I believe that a song can have power.
Music effects people in ways we still don't understand. They can make you a little sad,or depressed to the point of sucide,they can cheer you up a bit, or God can use them to save your life.
I've know from a experiance,our music effects us deeply so we have to be extremely careful that what we listen to is Godly.
i believe that if God wants to,He can give me the words to write a song that will change the world or someones life. He could use me to give someone who's desperate enough to take their life,some hope.
So,pray for me, and feel free to talk to me or ignore me.:)

-jaye

How dumb i really am

So i'm trying to(with Jesus's help of course) work through my problem with not having heroes and not looking for/rejecting the wisdom of the older generations.
I was reading my Bible last night when God (loveingly) nailed me~Proverbs 15:12 A scoffer does not love one who corrects him, Nor will he go to the wise. ~OWCH!that is so me right now.i dont like getting rebuked and i refuse to go to the wise. Alright. I'll go the wise,God.:)

So i got some books from the library today. God brought me and some of my amazing frienmly (frienmly=agroup of amazing Godly friends who are also brothers and sisters in the Lord.)to the really sweet thing called the Rebelution. Well God really spoke to every one of us through this conference and one of the thinigs we're going to do is start reading GREAT books.
not good books,but GREAT books;books that not only do no harm but do good instead.
well i went to the lirary and i realized i proably should have printed out the book list on the rebelution for starters,and that im going to have to go to the wise no matter how great the book i got was.
i ended up with some poetry books,a book on George Washington,and a few books by Meleody Carlson (who has aa tendency to be an amazing Godly woman). But one of my more interesting books is 'The Oxford Dictionary of Qoutations'. Like the name suggests,it conatins lots of qoutes from people. alot of it goes over my head and some uses big words that obscure the meaning for my little mind.[i can just hear gnome goin"IM LITTLE!!"while pushing her hands down on her forhead as she shrinks away:)]However,what i did get was really smart.(some was just funny too)like-"Drastic measures is Latin for a whopping." -F.Anstey
or
"Ever tried.Ever failed.No matter. Try again.Fail better"-Samuel Beckett

i feel really dumb,or maybe im just realizeing how dumb i already was.at any rate i hink im at least a wee-bit more teachable now.:)

peace,
-jaye
-NOTE TO GNOME MENT TO BE READ BY ONLY GNOME AND IGNORED BY EVERYBODY ELSE:-
rember when i told you about that not so minor problem i was re-dealing with?It's over now,i think i'm healed finally.but keep praying for me.please n thanx u:)

'It Can't Rain Everyday' by P.O.D.

lyricsThis little one tries as hard as she can, do anything just so she can fit in.She wants a friend so bad, she'll do whatever they tell her.To make them smile she would misbehave, but all the while they would laugh in her face.She begins to cry, because she thought that they liked her.Even though you feel all alone,It Can't Rain Everyday, it don't rain forever.Your sunshine may be gone, I know,It Can't Rain Everyday, it don't rain forever.He works hard everyday of his life, for his son on the way and his beautiful wife.But today he got a call from his job, they got something to tell him.They laid him off, now he's out on the street. He's gotta do what it takes so his family can eat.Can't even look at his wife, cause he feels like he failed them.Even though you feel all alone,It Can't Rain Everyday, it don't rain forever.Your sunshine may be gone, but I know,It Can't Rain Everyday, it don't rain forever.It don't rain, It don't rain forever.It can't rain, It don't rain forever.Reign down, reign down, reign down.So let it reign down, reign down, reign down,Reign down on me now.The young lady's been lost for awhile, but that's ok now she's having a child.She finally got what she wants, she's got someone who loves her.But this morning she woke up in pain, nobody had to tell her cause she knew right away.So she started to cry because she won't be a mother.Even though you feel all alone,It Can't Rain Everyday, it don't rain forever.Your sunshine may be gone, but I know,It Can't Rain Everyday, it don't rain forever.It don't rain, It don't rain forever.It can't rain, It don't rain forever.Reign down, reign down, reign down.Reign down on me.Reign down, reign down, reign down.

'Going in Blind' by P.O.D.

One Day... Some day..This life *not* like you wanted it.His eyes I can see again, I need you here.In your mind nobody's listening.It's alright not to feel again,Just breath again...Time after time I walk the fine line,But something keeps bringing me back.Time after time I'm going in blind,I don't know which way I need to go...Feels like your world is caving inAnd I cry, failing to understand,I wish I can...It's alright if you're missing him,In his eyes you can live again,Free within!Time after time I walk the fine line,But something keeps bringing me back.Time after time I'm going in blind,I don't know which way I need to go!Time after time I walk the fine line,But something keeps bringing me back.Time after time I can't see the signs,I don't know which way I need to go!Though all these roads lead me back to you...I don't know which way I need to go.One day Some day!Time after time I walk the fine line,But something keeps bringing me back.Time after time I'm going in blind,I don't know WHICH way I need to go!Time after time I walk the fine line,But something keeps bringing me back.Time after time I can't see the signsto all these roads leading me back to you,One day....

psalms 147:3 and 'it falls apart' by thousand foot krutch

Psa 147:3
He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds.



http://youtube.com/watch?v=elIspF-HS-c



this has been yet another sucessful dodge by jay to put anything that means anything in here

Well,i guess im going to be real from now on.brace urselfs.:)

this is my favorite song

http://youtube.com/watch?v=xezf68j9kBs






'Will You Love Me Tomorrow' by P.O.D.

take a look at this

http://youtube.com/watch?v=CzJAU0hxZtE