bite my tounge

better start this one off with a prayer.
~Dear God,give me the strength to bite my tounge. Few things are worse than mis-representing you. As a cristian im called to represent you to the world and i cant do this on my own,i need your help God.please come and rescue me and set guards all around me and in my mind and mouth and anywhere else im gonna need them.thank You,i love You amen~

obviously,i got some stuff on my mind,but there's a time and a place for everything....and now's not it i dont think . Wrote some more song lyrics,but they're upstairs in my room and i dont wanna go get them.besides im not sure if i like them or want to keep them or post them for anyone to read.(no offense:)) Pray for my friends while im thinking about it....they're all....they need Jesus like everybody else. Their attempts to deal with life in general just emphasies that. its hard to watch. I used to be like that (and when you think about it,its almost funny cause they're putting me through exactly what i must'vs put my family parents and friends through. and i'd like to take this time to publically apologize for that:sorry,i don't have any excuse for what i dd,sorry.:( ]
but Jesus saved me when i was past fixing (but not for Him obviously) and everyone had given up on me and i had even given up on myself. So im gonna spiritually run away from the monster i was and run into God's arms.
ok ok im done writing.i know you proably just scanned this instead of reading anyways so...whatevea:)

jaye

What should i say? I don't have anything i want to say that can be put in a way you'd understand.(<---see?)

just letting you know im not hi.im tired

today is like breakup day.
i know of at least three romantic realationships that r no more.why today?IDK.
i was so tired today....hahah.i was really REALLY slow.like more than usual,ppl were talking to me and i had no idea what they were saying half the time.it was pathetic. and i was babbling and i wasnt even sure what i was saying.and then my friend anna asked me if i was hi.(NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
seriously,stop and think about the ridiclous and almost entertaining stuff that comes out your mouthes guys!SHEESH.
luv ya all.:)you crack me up:) XD
yup.for the record my music got dissed today.but God used it to start a big long discussion about my faith.and that was kooler than a hundred fablous songs ever could be.i think my art teacher hates it when i bring up faith or anyone else does,but hey freedom of speech.id b doing it if it got/get's me killed anyways....


-jaye

music with meaning

so my friends decided that i have/am

• lead a sheltered/deprived life
• taste in music is crappy
• am musically to secluded(i think thats the word i mean...)

EXCUSE ME FOR HAVEING MORALS :) :P

its kinda funny though.they hate every thing i like,(or they havent heard it) and i feel the same way about their music.
im gonna bring my MP3 tomorrow and introduce them to some music .


-jaye

P.O.D. DA WORSHIP TEAM

my friends at school are so weird.(you dont even want to know.)


but anyways on a diffrent subject...
did you know P.O.D. are a worship team at the church they go to? KOOL!!!!!!!!!
been all...well,God's changing me to make me useful for what He wants to do with me.it's interesting.:)(FYI,i wasnt being sarcastic)


and so...yeah.see ya.

-jaye

foaming it in(take a guess)

hi and bye

othe current state of my life(not in entirty,just the parts i wanna babble about):

• My childhood friend is moveing away within two weeks(wich i think im unconciously in denile about,cause it just doesnt make sense to me yet.)


• i retired my first drumsticks ever


• i made brownies

ok,so the last one doesnt have anything to do with anything,sue me. but the thing is,i just got this feeling that something really big is gonna happen or start up. like,this is gonna effect my life from this point onwards.

and these have got to be about the coolest drumsticks i ever seen...drumsticks need to come in more colors and designes ya know?

>^..^< (<---kitty)

bye

-jaye

elipse!sorry i didnt add you back on flixster,i cant get into my account no matter what i do but i keep getting the emails so yeah...sorry about that.:)


-jaye

psalm 27:13-14(<----look it up:))

don't love the things of this world
its already pasing,dieing,fadeing.

set your eyes on Christ,He's the only thing that's gonna last,the only thing thats forever.
parents fade,friends die,loved ones leave....but god's still there holding you together when you shouldve broken long ago.
music stops,money loses its worth,clothes get worn out.....everything fails.
except my JESUS.
so ill hold onto HIM tighter than i hold everything else.


-JESUS's willing slave

barbies r amazing...dont really know why,just r...
(i just wokeup,cut me some slack!)
i want to rember my dreams,i hate going to sleep and not rembering what i dreamed.you always dream,unless ur dead,so why cant i rember?so frusturating.
i feel like i have all this stufff i should be able to rember but i cant.
my head hurts.hhaha
i need to go sleep some more...maybe l8er.


byez

-jaye

TRADGEDY AND BARBIE

Waffles told me a horrible tragic story today.it's really awful,so proceed with caution:boys dont actually grow out of it for quite awhile.theres even guys who r like that are 25.
HOW DEPRESSING.
(we were talking about how som e of my guy friends from school were snorting flour in cooking class.i watched them take it out so i KNOW its flour)
i really shouldnt be talking though,i have my moments when mybrain temporarily goes on vacation.XD haha


OH!my barbie obsession lives on!hahah
i got some acrylic paint today. i gonna paint some of my dolls,no,dont worry.nuthing as scary as that one doll i did....kinda like this:http://www.liquidsunshineonline.com/Gallery.html

pretty cool,huh?
yeah,i need a life i know i know.

God bless!

-jaye

learning how to hope

you know matt thessian from reliant k?well there's this guy in my general foods class that looks like him.its kinda distracting.(NO I DONT LIKE HIM)
i've thought about telling him he looks like a guy from reliant k who looks like frodo,but,some how i dont think he take that very well...
oh,bleach pens are wonderful things.i drew some angel wings on a shirt with one. i like it. i've always wanted to fly,air planes aree a let down in my opion,but hey,w/e.


pray for me,GOD's working something out in my ife and im haveing troube being patient and waiting. im learning how to hope.i must of been innocent enough to know how to once,but i got to bitter and jaded from the past. you know my testimoney?well,the past is still being erased.we'll leave it at that.you can ask about it,i just not gonna go on about it here.well,GOD bless ya all!may you grow Spiritually.



-jaye

written heartbeat

were dieing
concience sleeps
wake up
wake up
not long now
how did we get
desenstized
spiritually
were dieing
do you even
kno___

jaye is...

learning to breathe