headstrong

Two of the ppls on the channels i watch all the time are getting real and spitting in the face of the ol' staus qoute. kinda refreshing actually.i need to stop putting smiley faces on everything,im starting to fine them popping up everywhere on my writing. i can imagine me writing some BIG end of the semester big points term paper about some serious subject(none comes to mind)only to put a big fat smiley face on the end and getting docked points.and even worse,not realizing i did it. [it's one thing if you KNOW it's there cause you PUT it there.but if you didnt really think about it,you just did it without thinkning...that would seriously stink.but what good is a letter someone slapped on you?it isn't.im sorry,it doesn't mean much in the end:/]
speaking a lot to due over nothing,there's this bif scary blood dripping fanged test in music class. have i study?not sufficently. am i scared.yeah. when is it?oh,you know...
tomorrow.
on the flip side it's not like i've passed most of the scales test this year.
im trying really hard not to flip out and start ranting.
but you know what,i've talked to God and basically what He had to say(summarized and re-phrased,you were warned). the rich man and the poor man die the same way.in the end,men (and girls.) are men,we die the same. if you held a gun up to my head(please DONT.that would get messy and its a little frowned apoun by the law) and a gun up to mozart's head,we die the same way.in the end their is no difference between me and mozart.we're just flesh,we both fall victim to the same things and we both die...without being graded on it might i add.
in the end,the only thing thats gonna matter or count for anything is if we knew God and what we did with that knowledge. we're going to be judged the same way and it's not going to matter whether i dropped out or if i had all a's and was a mini einstien.


band clas....HOW DO I KEEP MANAGING TO GET MYSELF INTO THESE SITUATIONS???????????????!!
no.i know how,i didnt ask God about it,i just kinda clapped my hands over my ears spiritually and signed myself up.
kinda like 23 faith(remeber that band me n my buds had way back when?it was years ago but w/e not the point),i just rushed head first into the fire. and now im paying for it. *grits teeth*im REAlly paying for it.my word. what's wrong w/me?AGHHHH.

w/e.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kVO_acxSCKg
God bless you all!:)




-jaaaYE