How dumb i really am

So i'm trying to(with Jesus's help of course) work through my problem with not having heroes and not looking for/rejecting the wisdom of the older generations.
I was reading my Bible last night when God (loveingly) nailed me~Proverbs 15:12 A scoffer does not love one who corrects him, Nor will he go to the wise. ~OWCH!that is so me right now.i dont like getting rebuked and i refuse to go to the wise. Alright. I'll go the wise,God.:)

So i got some books from the library today. God brought me and some of my amazing frienmly (frienmly=agroup of amazing Godly friends who are also brothers and sisters in the Lord.)to the really sweet thing called the Rebelution. Well God really spoke to every one of us through this conference and one of the thinigs we're going to do is start reading GREAT books.
not good books,but GREAT books;books that not only do no harm but do good instead.
well i went to the lirary and i realized i proably should have printed out the book list on the rebelution for starters,and that im going to have to go to the wise no matter how great the book i got was.
i ended up with some poetry books,a book on George Washington,and a few books by Meleody Carlson (who has aa tendency to be an amazing Godly woman). But one of my more interesting books is 'The Oxford Dictionary of Qoutations'. Like the name suggests,it conatins lots of qoutes from people. alot of it goes over my head and some uses big words that obscure the meaning for my little mind.[i can just hear gnome goin"IM LITTLE!!"while pushing her hands down on her forhead as she shrinks away:)]However,what i did get was really smart.(some was just funny too)like-"Drastic measures is Latin for a whopping." -F.Anstey
or
"Ever tried.Ever failed.No matter. Try again.Fail better"-Samuel Beckett

i feel really dumb,or maybe im just realizeing how dumb i already was.at any rate i hink im at least a wee-bit more teachable now.:)

peace,
-jaye
-NOTE TO GNOME MENT TO BE READ BY ONLY GNOME AND IGNORED BY EVERYBODY ELSE:-
rember when i told you about that not so minor problem i was re-dealing with?It's over now,i think i'm healed finally.but keep praying for me.please n thanx u:)